Saturday, November 28, 2009

I Enjoyed My Century Bangus Fillet at the Church

It’s a miracle of all miracles. It is another magical moment in my life. Yesterday, I woke up feeling excited for what was ahead. You might say, “What’s the big deal? It’s not like you feel it once-in-a-blue moon?!” But yeah, you’re just right. It was a once-in-a-blue-moon adrenaline rush.

In my new-found glory, I decided to share the happiness to others. It was the best way to let the world know I am happy being me. And who was going to be the object of my affection? Well, the unlucky ones were no other than the youth of the Sta. Monica Christian Fellowship Church (SMCF).


I heard from my sister, who is a leader of the youth group in the Church, that they are preparing for their anniversary on November 29. Their youth group doesn’t have enough funds anymore because of all the preparations they spent on. Their band has also been very busy rehearsing for their major presentation.

Pretending to be a fairy Godmother, I decided to give them a little surprise to cheer them up. My spirits were too high to even hesitate. It was the perfect time to give back to the community.

I went to the nearest supermarket to buy the group some snacks. The quote, “The easiest way to a man’s heart is through his stomach” not only holds true in love. I’m sure you would also agree that food is also the easiest way to lift up the spirits.

The SMCF youth need not be stressed anymore because I will come to the rescue. But lo and behold, I only had 100 hundred pesos and some coins left in my wallet. How do I maximize the value of my dear money?


Would it be a Harvey’s combo meal? Definitely, they would love it. But it would only feed 2 people. What about the rest?

Ah! I said there was another stop --- the Supermarket! Some junk foods and biscuits would fill a hungry stomach. But wait! What nutrients would they get out of junks? Errr, would I dare give them what’s bad for them? The fairy Godmother had to think a little better. After a little walking exercise at the grocery, finally, here I grab the perfect meal with nutritional value which didn’t hurt too much in my pocket.

I hurried up to the Church, excited to be the youth’s mini-Santa, bringing them 2 cans of Century Bangus Fillet. I expected another miracle --- Mitchie feeding a multitude with her 2 cans of bangus fillet. hehe.


Look at their happy faces! My heart was filled with joy because after such a long time, I was able to make people very happy. It was a magical moment I never want to miss again. Having this kind of enthusiasm makes me feel like I still have so much to offer to the world. I just wanted to remain in that state of subtle joy and peace forever.

The group immediately fell in love with the Century Bangus Fillet. It was just so convenient to eat. Say goodbye to your can openers. It’s so easy to lift the can open and in a minute, you’re stomach will be enjoying fresh bangus.

I bragged that only 40 pesos is all it takes for a meal that’s good for the heart with its rich omega-3 nutritional content. I heard you said, "What did you just say?"


Okay, please allow me to give a brief background on Omega-3. Omega 3's are essential fatty acids that are not produced in your own bodies. These good fats come from what you eat. Fish are the best source of Omega-3's. And I want to share one tiny tidbit of information. According to a research done in the 1930's by Drs. Burr and Burr, Eskimos have an amazing 0% history of heart disease and cancer. "What do they eat? Let me eat it, too." Eskimos live on sea life like fish, cod, whales, seals and salmons. Omega-3's which are provided with every can of Century products like the Century Bangus Fillet plus a healthy balanced diet and lifestyle are basically just what you need to prevent heart disease.

Omega-3 also has different benefits to the body like dry eye relief,a beautiful hair and a sexy belly as it helps you lose belly fat.


But the good thing is that Century is bringing Omega-3's to you at your own convenience. They put it in a can where you can eat it anytime, anywhere, whether you are preaching at the altar, rehearsing with a band, or waiting at the church’s benches. Or you could give it to your special dearie and share romantic moments under a coconut tree.

All the happiness I shared with the youth ministry of SMCF with only a 100 hundred bucks and some coins was a real eye-opener. I never thought that happiness comes in a little canned bangus plus a whole bunch of crazy kids. These simple things make me feel like I am a blessing to others. So I end this article with my food for thought, “The best way to fight a little sadness is to fish a little of those yummy bangus and share it over a cup of love and friendship.” It's an all-around food perfect for all types of people and for all types of occasion.

Right, Brothers??

Saturday, October 31, 2009

math and english tutorial services

Hi!! I am offering my tutorial services for free: english and math. If you liked it,
You are free to give any amount. hehe

Please send concerns to mishelreyes@gmail.com.

I'll be expecting mails soon. Hugs to all.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Subic Beach


If I had my own car, I'd drive every weekend to the beach. I'd stay up all night researching the net for the most beautiful bitches, i mean, beaches near manila.

I am able to meditate and reflect when I am in the beach. It's like I am at the most peaceful place I could be.

I feel loved and I wanna love with all my heart, soul and mind.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

NoyNoy to Run for President

Okay. I watched "Tayong Dalawa" and there was an episode similar to that of Sen. Mar Roxas' situation. Agot Isidro played the contrabida mom who was mahadera. On Jake Cuenca and Kim's wedding, Agot said something like, "We're going to open the wedding to the public. Everyone is invited to the wedding." Haha. When I saw this, I knew the scriptwriter was against Sen. Mar's exaggerated campaign. In a news, I watched Sen. Roxas say something like, "We are going to open our wedding to the public. We want this to share with them."

See?? hehe.. It's all for the presidency.

Now, Sen. Aquino is being used by the opposition to run for president. Are you going to vote for him? I probably would. I hope he really has the calling to become one. He is perceived as weak by the many. I hope he proves them wrong. I just hope he wouldn't be a corrupt official. I hope.

My Precious Moments

WAHAAH.

1. Strikethrough shortcut in excel - ctrl + 5

2. Copy 1 sheet of excel from 1 workbook to another - drag and drop

3. Compare workbooks in excel - View > side-by-side

4. Drag a formula automatically in one column of excel - select starting point then press shift key and click the last cell, then press control key + D



Monday, August 31, 2009

Coincidence #1

I'd like to start tracking my coincidences or serendipity. Here's a personal funny account of my day today. hehe.

I was at home exchanging texts with S.O. I was calling him. I desperately wanted him to see a doctor but he didn't want to.

Next, I was on the way to Rob. I was thinking of giving him again the "Silent treatment" for until God knows when; until a coincidence happened. He showed up at exactly the same spot I was. haha. I guess that was the only way for God to show me he didn't deserve such kind of treatment.

I was at the escalator in Rob Ermita going ground, when he tapped me. haha! I was surprised to see him beside me. He said he was also surprised to see a familiar figure. He also never thought it would be me. haha.

In short, we were both surprised to see each other. I got relieved for he finally followed my advice. He was to see a doctor at 4pm. On the other hand, my family and I were to have my sister's phone fixed. hehehe.

For a short while, we had a brief family bonding. hehe. He got to talk to my father briefly. I am always happy when he talks with him.

Now, I am smiling. It's gonna be one of the coincidences I'd love to recount and reminisce. hehehe..

Here are pics of what transpired a while ago.



Sunday, August 30, 2009

Tips to Exercise

Today is a national non-working holiday, August 31. I woke up earlier than usual. By 6am, I was up already. After my usual routine: breakfast, FB, Friendster, gmail and multiply, I hit the stepper. At nine am, I was working my way to losing some calories.

Here are some tips to making that goal:

1. Don't set unreasonable goals. I initially said, "I'll finish a 3-hour workout today." A realistic goal would be setting a 15-minute workout. After reaching that, then, it's time to set another 15-minute workout. It worked for me.

2. Think of the movies you have watched before. Mine was, "Facing the Giants." That scene, "Never give up until you got nothing else left to give," motivated me to finish what I had started.

3. Resist the temptation. While I was doing the exercise, a hot Pancit Canton was waiting for me. Haha. I said, "Doing this is no joke. I say, 'NO'." haha.

4. Apply the science of Economics: the principle of Trade-Offs. Okay, if I were to stop the workout because I thought I was tired already, at least, a more productive activity should take place this. I couldn't think of any better way to spend a day off other than to perspire. haaha.


The result of my self-talk was amazing. hehe. After 40 minutes, I am back to planning what to do next. hehe.

Kekaku Kakuka

"Love is exclusive. My lover is mine and I am his. Sabi sa Kapampangan: "Kekaku kakuka." Ba, totoo yon. I am yours and you are mine. Kekaku kakuka. Yan nga ang gawin nyong motto:

Kekaku kakuka. Love is exclusive. "My lover is mine and I am his" is repeated in 6:3 and 7:10. We jump thousands of years and go to Hebrews 13:4 and what do you find? "Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral."

For love to be very sensuous, it must be very exclusive. Alam nyo merong mga wives, may mga experience sila sa mga husbands nila who went around tapos when they are already in their very sensuous moments together, the wife walang gana. Tapos sasabihin pa niya "O, yan ba ang ginagawa mo sa mga kerida mo, yang ginagawa mo ngayon?" E siyempre naman anong mangyayari sa inyong interaction kapag ganon. Pero can you blame a woman na nag-iisip ng kung anu-ano. We are far from perfect and many marriages have actually been brief and broken by such adultery. But I tell you this, even if it has already happened, forgive and forget because if you do not forget, you will never be able to catch that feeling again. At araw-araw, tuwing lumulubog ang araw nagtitirintas ka, sinasabi mong "Where is the love?" Kailangan marunong ding magpatawad. Kung nagkamali, patawarin and never commit the same mistake.

Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage should be kept pure. Dapat marunong kayong mag-date ng ibang klase namang date, yung mga kakaibang setting, kakaiabang environment, not the same, boring routine everytime. Love is supposed to be sensuous and amorous and exciting so that you offer no temptation to the other person because everything that anyone could look for, we find in marriage. That should be what marriage is. Love is exclusive. It must be exclusive."

-Excerpt from Pastor Ed Lapiz' "Parang Kaning Isusubo KASAL." 170 pesos from National Bookstore




Tick,tock, tick, tock

"kung ang kasagutan sa mga tanong ay hindi dumating ngayon, maghihintay pa rin ako.."

Waiting is hated by most people, me included. But if my life is less than significant to me and to others because I don't have the answer to a life-changing question, is there any other better thing to do than to wait for the answer??

I have something to look forward to each day. I am seeking for the answer to my question. It is that realization, that one moment in my life where I'd find my peace again; where I'd find out who I am again.

For that magical moment, it is worth the wait.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Being a MOM @ 30

"The essence of a woman is in being a mother."

Okay, I get it. I am turning 28 next year. I was happily daydreaming about how my next year would be filled with wonderful and colorful memories until my mother brought me back to reality.

"Michelle, mag-asawa ka na kasi kailangan mo nang magkaanak. Mahihirapan ka nang manganak nian."

Sigh. O-M-G. Ang MOM wants me to get married so she can have her grandchild. I know she is just kidding but why do I feel a bit affected? I think she's right. If I start having a kid by 30, I'd have to wait until 55 before I can have my own grandchild; by that time my son/daughter would have been 25. And knock on wood, I hope I am still around by that time. What if I met an accident or a terminal illness hit me?

It's really a mystery; the future that's waiting for me to be built. It's like I am an architect of my own life. I wish I had known it earlier; like 5 years ago when I was only 22. I could have planned better. hahahaa!!!!! It's too late for the what-might-have-beens.

The XYZ generation or whatever you call it is to be blamed.

Zsa Zsa Padilla on the Buzz Tough Ten this afternoon. "Kuya Boy, I gave birth at 16." Whaaat! KAlooka talaga! During that time, it was probably so humiliating. But now, I don't think so.

HAHA! How about artificial insemination??? hahahahahahahah!! I'm just kidding. I can't afford it!

Seriously, I just didn't expect I'd have to consider stuff like this on settling down. I'd surely want to get married and have kids. But there's too much PRESSURE now that my biological clock is ticking faster than ever.

Four more years to go and I'm out of the calendar. I know, anytime from now, I should be walking down the aisle. HAHA! And I should get pregnant right away. HAHAHA!!




Thursday, July 16, 2009

Reflection #1

The realization comes at a certain age. To me, it came at 27. I have to live the mature life.

I want to feel the way I want but I wouldn't. I want to be the same, old, Michelle I used to be --- happy, spur-of-the-moment, stupid, crazy, and insane.



If I allow my heart to rule, my thoughts would follow the same direction. Then, my actions would reflect my emotions. And I don't want that. The picture of my mom flashes before my eyes. I really didn't care anymore about how my mom would feel about my not-so-well-thought-of decisions; decisions I wasn't very proud of. But now, I just feel I owe it to her to live my life responsibly.


And then, I think of him. His face flashes before me like a film. His firm and noble voice echoes in my head. It reverberates and bounces around the circumference of my head. LOL. I don't want to give him an intense headache. I don't want to be the black sheep. Not again. lol.



And then, his face flashes next. If I act on impulse, I can only imagine bewilderment and disappointment painted upon his face. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to start from zero. And count again.


My dreams would flash before me --- a stable life, a peaceful society, a happy family.


And so the maturity is a must. That, I have realized. I have realized that someday, I'd want to help the underprivileged and the needy. Without a stable job, how in the world can I do that?? Haller. That is a miracle. Right?



No matter what circumstance I find myself in, I cannot easily succumb to my emotions at that moment. The maturity stage is ready for exploring. The world of maturity needs some people to inhabit her. I am forced to join the planet.


But I know regret is not waiting at the end of the line. I look forward to a rich harvest by sacrificing my moments of insanity to a life of maturity.



My time to be carefree has passed already. And I must say, "I did it with flying colors! Bwahahaha!" Maybe, that is why, I let my head rule over my heart now; although I can just easily let my heart lead me.

I wasn't suppressed. I had my time. No regrets anymore. Now I understand why I did all those crazy stuff. Maybe, fate had it that way; so that @ 27, when I feel the urge to do crazy stuff, I would rethink a hundred times, and I would just end up letting logical thinking get my way. All of this, without regret and emotional pain.

I thank you. Bow. Wow. Wow. ha. ha.

Learning comes even to the slow. Like me. Lol.



Saturday, July 11, 2009

Couples of the Month


"Seduction"


"Beauty Titlists"





"Under??"






You might agree with me when I say that friendships are born out of love. My HS friends are one of the rare friends I have found in the world. They complete me. :)



My First Couple's Reunion


Standing (L-R): Joven, Belle, Bert, Onin & Go
Seated (L-R): Rache, Glo, Mitch & Dheng


"Love Triangle"

~ Onin has always been there for Go through thick and thin. ~
~ Blessed is he who has found a friend like Onin. He is the type of friend who
acts like a brother. ~


"Candid"


"Closeness"
Yiheeeeee!!! Close tayo, oh! Tight!!! LOL


"Seduction"
LOL!!!!!!!

These pictures were taken last July 4-5, 2009 @ one of the many resorts in Pansol, Laguna. Thank you to Mr. Joven Gonzales for the pictures!! =)

It was my first time to attend a party with my BF's barkada. I didn't feel like an intruder because all the boys were my HS classmates in Masci except for Joven, who was never my classmate but just a batchmate.

I will miss you, guys! Until next! =D


Monday, June 22, 2009

How True

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Confessions of a Broken Heart

Lately, I've had more than my fair share of thinking about love and life. Thank God, I am almost over it. I used to be so hurt until the Lord God showed me that there's more to life than nursing a broken heart and thinking about the "what-might-have-beens."

On the first week of break-up, I could not eat lunch. I would go to the condo unit and spend time praying to God for strength to overcome. After the 1-hour break, I would return to the office.

On the second week of break-up, my mother bought me Ensure. It served as my breakfast, lunch, merienda and dinner.

On the third week of break-up, I was getting the hang of it. I could eat lunch with appetite. hehe.

On the fourth week of break-up, I had a "bonggang-bonggang" vacation. It meant more rest for me.

On the fifth week, wait a minute.

June 15 marks the 14th week of break-up. haha! I'm not literally going into a countdown.

In the span of 3 months, I've gone through the process of letting go. There were a lot of sleepless nights, of sobbing, of silent crying, of self-pitying, of endless thinking, of debugging (haha!).

And I know it's already a cliche but I'd still say it: it all made me a stronger person. I am probably the weakest type of girl you would ever meet. hahaha. Just consider where I am coming from, you'd probably say, "Oh, I pity her, she's so weak..." haha! But hey, lo and behold, I think I've made it through the rain.

Whatever it is I've been through, I wouldn't wish it on any of my enemies (if I had but I know I don't have any). I pray that none of my loved ones (especially my sisters) would experience such kind of emotional pain. It was too painful to bear. Period.

When friends say, "Mitch, you're gonna get over it," I would believe them. That was the only thing that kept me moving. Oh, and before I forget to mention, it was the Lord Jesus Christ who has been healing me since Day 1 of the break-up.

I had wanted a million times to run away and be in a faraway land. But thank God for wise friends who would tell me to think it over and over again. If it was only for myself, I would have gone to Mt. Apo and hid there for a year. haha! Kidding aside, if I had considered only myself, I would have quit my job and have stayed in the comforts of my home instead. That was the old Michelle --- quick, carefree, careless, spontaneous, and stubborn.

My heart ruled my head. It also ruled my LIFE.

That was then. Now that I've realized I am capable of a sacrifice, I just might have another dose of strength to keep me glued to my job for the next 2 quarters. After that, I think that's enough. hahaha.

My Lord, my Saviour and my Creator; our Creator; saved me from death. Figuratively, that is.
I almost got drowned in a pit of negative emotions. I could have totally lost the optimism that a person needs to survive life. Jesus Christ is my Saviour.

I'm gonna bet my life, I wouldn't be where I am right now, if not for the Christ Jesus who saved me. He used my loved ones to help me go through the most trying time of my life.

You have no idea how my loved ones --- cousins, aunts, mother, father, brother and sisters, patiently loved me through the rehabilitation process. hahahaa.

If I could face the world throughout those times, I was being carried by someone Mighty and Merciful. HE let me pass through the storm and HE kept me safe and warm. He protected me from crumbling into pieces.

If I could laugh and smile through the days, inside, I was exerting too much effort to control the raging battle of emotions waiting to burst. Again, the LORD JESUS CHRIST taught me to keep a peaceful heart even for just a moment. That was enough to keep me through the days to survive.

Thank you to everyone and that includes my colleagues for bearing with me and my insanity.

I confess I nursed a broken heart in the past 3 months. But now, it's fixed already. ha ha.

Thank you, Lord Jesus Christ. Ad Majorem dei Gloriam. All for the Greater Glory of God. Amen.


Sunday, June 7, 2009

The Day I Said Yes



SM Valenzuela

I said "yes" to a life full of fun and laughter.
I said "yes" to adventure.
I said "yes" to a new life.

These words may not mean anything to you at all. It all seem vague. "What is she talking about?" But today is a significant day in my life. June 7 will always be remembered.

I want to look back someday and remember that June 7 has been a good day. I started the day singing. In the afternoon, I spent time with my family with whom I haven't had enough bonding session in a long time. We watched "Night at the Museum 2" and laughed like we owned the theater. hahahaah! Then, we bought an ice cream back home. wow! These simple things make my life inexplicably beautiful. *hahaha! I don't know the meaning of that word! It just felt right to use it.*

Oh, there's this quotable quote from the film I liked best:

The key to happiness, to true happiness, is doing the thing you love most with the people you love!! hahaha!

How utterly true! Again, I just felt like it meant something. hahaha!

And now, I am left speechless for the right words to express how I feel. I just feel so happy inside; maybe because *fingers crossed* I am seeing something brand new to look forward to.

It's hard to explain. I don't always feel this way. I have to broadcast it to the whole world to know --- I feel peace. My heart is smiling silently. *as if there's a loud smile?!!*

If I could show you how my heart looks like right now, it looks like this:

Oops and before I leave, I'll let you in on something: I am excited to celebrate my father's bday + Father's Day!!!! wahahahahahaha! Ay labeeeeeetttt!



Saturday, May 30, 2009

Reflections under the Sun


si lolayeah.blogspot.com

ang tita mitchie na nuknukan ng ambisyosa

kasama ko ang owner ng Resort, Boss David
married na sia dearrrr soweeee! haha!
siempre, dress-dressan ang lola nioooo!

kaloka!

pa-ihaw-ihaw na lang si MAMAAA at tito TOny

sipain mo paaaa, dong!

ang angkan mula sa terrace

ang familia minus the HUNK brother

si pamangking Miggy Boi


hello! this is me. welcome to my world of everyday survival in the cruel world out there.

ouch! hahahaha!

one of the things that keeps me sane is family reunion.

LaBellaColina was the place! Situated at Tarlac, it was a grand place to experience the

beauty of life. Adorable surroundings surprised us. It's the perfect place to relax and

reflect.

While I was there, I had some of my all-time favorite reflections again:

1. If you want to lead people, engage them and never leave them behind. Hahaha! *Ang

tarayyy!
2. Face you fears. A courageous spirit is a reliable fortress in times of trouble.
3. Bridge your past and present so that you have something to look forward to in the

future. NAAAAks! So lalim!! hahahaha!

And last but not the least, and the most important of all

4. You gotta act as if you are already! Gets?? hahaha!
5. Love is like hitchhiking. Stay with the one who lets you in for the long haul and

doesn't drop you off someplace dark and gloomy.

Alright, that ends my post for today. ahhahahaha!!




Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Choose

Learn to pick the rotten tomatoes from the fresh ones.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Fitness First Cycling Class

I enrolled in Fitness First Eastwood City last March for 2650 pesos. WoW! Quite an amount for a fit body. I am bound by contract. After office, I head straight to the gym and do my strut. I enjoy the Cycling and RPM classes at 730 pm. One time, I saw a HS friend from Masci and we greeted each other like long-lost friends.

Some stuff you can get from Fitness First:

1. Sauna/Steam bath
2. Brewed Coffee
3. Diet Soda
4. Gym Classes like Yoga, Yoga , Yoga wahahahaha!!!
5. Cardio and other types of exercises
6. Cute Trainers --- the best! wahahahahahahahahah


Alright, gottta sleep early tonight. I'll just leave you all with a nice quote straight from my head:

"How do you move forward? Really? Just how? I guess, you move forward by letting your mind and thoughts move forward. Don't dwell on anything that has already passed, like even if it has just passed your mind for a second ago. Gets? Hahaha! Aja!"

Friday, May 15, 2009

THE SACRAMENT OF WAITING

THE SACRAMENT OF WAITING
by Fr. James Donelan S.J.

The English poet John Milton wrote that those who serve only also stand and wait. I think I would go further and say that those who wait render the highest form of service. Waiting requires more discipline, more self-control and emotional maturity, more unshakable faith in our cause, more unwavering hope in the future, more sustaining love in our hearts that all the greatest deeds of deering-do go by the name of action.

Waiting is a mystery - a natural sacrament of life - there is a meaning hidden in all the times we have to wait. It must be an important mystery because there is so much waiting in our lives.

Everyday is filled with those little moments of waiting (testing our patience and our nerves, schooling us in self-control.) We wait for meals to be served, for a letter to arrive, for a friend to call or show up for a date. We wait in line at cinemas and theaters, concerts and circuses.
Our airline terminals, railway stations and bus depots are great temples of waiting filled with men and women who wait in joy for the arrival of a loved one - or wait in sadness to say goodbye and give the last wave of hand. We wait for springs to come - or autumn - for the rains to begin and stop.

And we wait for ourselves to grow from childhood to maturity. We wait for those inner voices that tell us when we are ready for the next stop.

We wait for graduation, for our first job, our first promotion. We wait for success and recognition. We wait to grow up - to reach the stage where we make our own decisions. We cannot remove this waiting from our lives.
It is a part of the tapestry of living - the fabric in which the threads are woven to tell the story of our lives.

Yet current philosophies would have us forget the need to wait "grab all the gusto you can get." So reads one of America's greatest beer ads - get it now! Instant pleasure, instant transcendence. Do not wait for anything.
Life is short - eat, drink and be merry because tomorrow you will die. And so they rationalize us into accepting unlicensed and irresponsible
freedom- pre-marital sex and extra marital affairs - they warn against attachments and commitments - against expecting anything of anybody, or allowing them to expect anything of us - against dropping any anchors in the currents of our life that will cause us to hold and wait.

This may be the correct prescription for pleasure - but even that is fleeting and doubtful - what was it Shakespeare said about the mad pursuit of pleasure - "Past reason hunted, and once had, past reason hated." Not if we wish to be real human beings, spirit as well as flesh, soul as well as heart, we have to learn to wait. For if we never learn to wait, we will never learn to love someone other than ourselves.

For most of all waiting means waiting for someone else. It is a mystery, brushing by our face everyday like a stray wind of leaf falling from a tree. Anyone who has loved knows how much waiting goes into it - how much waiting is important for love to grow, to flourish through a lifetime. Why is this? Why can we not have it right now what we so desperately want and need? Why must we wait - two years, three years - and seemingly waste so much time? You might as well ask why a tree should take so long to bear fruit - the seed to flower - carbon to change to diamond. There is no simple answer - no more than there is to life's other demands -having to say goodbye to someone you love because either you or they have made other commitments; or because they have to grow and find the meaning of their own lives - having yourself to leave home and loved ones to find your own path
- good-byes, like waiting, are also sacraments of our lives.

all we know is that growth - the budding, the flowering of love needs patient waiting. We have to give each other a time to grow. There is no way we can make someone else truly love us or we them, except through time. So we give each other that mysterious gift of waiting - of being present without asking demands and rewards. There is nothing harder to do than this. It truly tests the depth and sincerity of our love. But there is life in the gift we give.

So lovers wait for each other - until they can see things the same way - or let each other freely see things in quite different ways.

There are times when lovers hurt each other and cannot regain the balance of intimacy of the way they were. They have to wait - in silence - but still present to each other - until the pain subsides to an ache and then only a memory and the threads of the tapestry can be woven together again in a single love story.

What do we lose when we refuse to wait; when we try to find shortcuts through life - when we try to incubate love and rush blindly and foolishly into a commitment we are neither mature nor responsible enough to assume?
We lose the hope of truly loving or of being loved. Think of all the great love stories of history and literature - isn't it of their very essence that they are filled with this strange but common mystery - that waiting is part of the substance - the basic fabric against which the story of that true love is written.

How can we ever find either life or true love if we are too impatient to wait for it?

Waiting is a good thing only if something is worth waiting for.

How will you know if it's worth it? Gut feel.

What if you don't trust your gut? Pray. You will be enlightened. Trust me.

Is it wrong to expect while waiting? It's not wrong, but it will increase your chances of heartbreak and disappointment if things don't work out in the end.

Is it good to expect while waiting? It is better to HOPE.

What's the difference between hoping and expecting? HOPING means you're open to either side of the coin landing though you're more inclined to believe that things will turn out well. EXPECTING means you're thinking single-track...which won't do you much good at all.

What's the difference between waiting and expecting? EXPECTING is waiting for something TO DEFINITELY HAPPEN. WAITING is staying where you are, but not necessarily expecting something to happen definitely.

Do you need assurance from someone you're waiting for while you're waiting? Ideally, yes. But realistically, do you really want assurance from this person? It's so easy to just point at something and make that the reason why you're waiting ("Because she said..." "Because he told me that...").

With WAITING, all you really can rely on are 3 things: your gut feel, your heart and mind. Just YOURSELF, not anyone else.

So should you wait? What does your gut say? How does your heart feel? What does your mind think? If they're saying different things, keep asking yourself these 3 questions (and pray!) until you ge t a solid answer.

THEN you'll know if he or she is worth waiting for.